hope too much

it happen exactly yesterday, i've got text message from BEM FKM UI open recruitment. and it said...

im not accepted. im not a bemers. they dont trust me to take care some serious task that will being held in fkm someday. for the first minute i read it i just feel nothing, yeah bem isn't everything in my life.

but then i starting to feel losing something important, i feel empty. i had hope to be accepted, too much hope maybe. of course i did hope too much, i've been in osis when i was senior high school and im doing it with my full spirit, osis such a big passion in my life.

okey im trying to forget my dissappointment about bem and read magazine, which is gogirl! (i love this magazine :D) and then i found article about priceless lessons. its an advice from success people about what should we do to appreciate our life. and i got inspired with om Bob Sadino said. he said

"harapan akan menumbuhkan daya ungkit (leverage). sering kan kita berharap lalu kecewa ? kalau ngga mau kecewa, ya jangan berharap !"

jleb. geez thats really punch me. its like a knife that stabbed my blue feeling in the right place. how can it come in such a perfect timing ? tapi saya malah jadi bingung, kalo ga berawal dari berharap gimana kita punya keinginan kuat buat melakukan sesuatu yang ingin kita capai ? boy its really hard to think.

and i remember what batman said in his movie.

"why do we fall ? so that we can learn to raise again"

thats it, thats what i need to realize. i did fall so much in the past and look at me now, i can rise again. and what om Bob Sadino said is true, dont expexted too much. just enjoy the process and keep smiling whatever the result is.

and the good news is, i'll be busy in orchest mahawaditra to improve my skill in violin.

i have found my new passion now :3